ok so not little scared but completely and totally freaked out of my mind! Ok so I know that God has already went before us and paved the way. I dont doubt for a minute that our God cant show up and show off but as a momma this is crazy. The fear for this surgery has always been there but it seems that it is getting very intense these days. I look at his precious face and I think what a true miracle he is. He has been such a blessing in our lives. But once again theres the fear. The fear of the unknown....
How long will the surgery take? What will the outcome be? Will they be able to close his gum? What will his scar look like? How will he be able to eat afterwards without his NAM? How much pain will my precious baby be in afterwards? I just have so many questions?
Part of me is actually looking forward to the surgery. Sounds crazy I know but people can be so cruel. I can't wait until his lip is joined together. Grant you I love his smile right now but when someone looks at me and says whats wrong with your baby? I want to slap them. I am thankful that he is not old enough to understand them. In my eyes he is already perfect but this will be an added bonus for him.
Ok I think I am rambling. My mind is just so full of thoughts this week. Dave is away at school this week which always creates choas. He arrives home Friday evening and we are heading out for flordia to move his parents stuff back here. We will arrive home Tuesday evening and we are due to report to pittsburgh tuesday night. I am pretty sure we have to be at the hospital at 7:30 wednesday morning. Just thinking about it I am getting crazy again.
Although I am scared let me make it clear that we trust GOD ALMIGHTY completely with our baby boy. I know that God has great plans for him. I am excited for the end result. Please lift our family up your your prayers. Our family will be seperated for the next couple of weeks. Isaiah will have steri strips across his lip for two weeks and will be in arm splints for three weeks. He will no longer have his NAM which will be a struggle regarding feeding issues. We will be at the hospital 2-5 days.
Good night... my mind and body is tired.
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It will all work out for the best, God will not give more than we can handle.
Love, thoughts and prayers will be headed your way
What you are feeling is perfectly normal. Your a Mommy, and we all get nervous when our child is going up against something that is out of our control. But, thanks be to God that we have His perfect peace! Isaiah is going to do just fine and I'm sure Mommy & Daddy are going to be Okay too! You all are in our prayers. Just take time to breath and God will take care of the rest!
Love,
Vic
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